Breaking A Few Eggs
by Duane Sharrock
Mirjiam, who has probably never worn perfume, had walked up to Wilhelm as he sat in a Chinindio Collective cubicle that smelled like more than a few cleaning fluids and scrubbing powders. The Collective was basically an embassy, so was off limits to the NortAmerico government, including law enforcement: federal, local, regional, digital, as well for private. That didn’t matter to Mirjiam though. She belonged to Project Grendel.
He had never known her coffee and cream skin, but he had known she was coming when she entered the building, and knew she wasn’t armed. No point in running if she was here. She was here because she knew he was there– so he sat there waiting for her, while preparing his report, narrating details, uploading his data, racing to get his finishing touches into his node. There was one last thing to do before he could share the story among the newsgroups. He doubted he would have time to do it. He was going to try though.
For him to go dark, he had been forced to destroy and dump all of his journalist equipment. The equipment, especially his credentialling badge, would have allowed him to share the news story more quickly, but he wouldn’t have had the chance if he didn’t go dark. Besides, the Chinindio Collective would not have allowed him inside. They were fastidious about restricting mobile tech, and they probably thought they were being thorough. They didn’t know about Project Grendel, the sophistication of its organic technologies, or how much access it already had into the Chinindio Collective. Wilhelm knew. Well, he thought wistfully, he knew some of it. Not all of it, apparently, since Mirjiam was there. But the fact that Wilhelm knew so much wasn’t enough for Grendel to kill him. Grendel wouldn’t kill him. Maybe it couldn’t. Anyway, that’s what Mirjiam was for—among other things.
Mirjiam touched his hand when she said, “Please, Wilhelm. Stop.” He hadn’t expected the move or he would have jumped away or stood beyond her reach. Had he really slipped so much?
Even so, Wilhelm stopped his flinch before he flinched. He suppressed it immediately so that he didn’t even twitch, even though she had startled him. He didn’t even look at her hand. He looked at her, at Mirjiam. If she had brought him something, given him something, he wouldn’t have seen it anyway. Instead, he studied her attentive, brown eyes and she glanced down and away from his stare as she mentally—maybe even emotionally–distanced herself. If it wasn’t for Grendel, Wilhelm would have thought she was composing herself. Mirjiam still worked for Grendel, though. She was still a believer that Project Grendel kept people safe. Grendel worked at keeping us safe all of the time, everyday, Wilhelm thought, ironically. But Grendel was about to fail. It was all over. Grendel had failed. Or was about to fail. Project Grendel would never be able to save everyone and everything. We have run out of time. The Earth was finished, and soon.
Inside, he was reeling. He would have never thought she would attack without some kind of conversation first, some kind of monologue or something. What happened to professional courtesy? Of course, he knew courtesy was something trained out of them as they progressed beyond the recruitment. Rationalizing the actions was pointless. The job had to be done. Grendel was the name of an ancient monster; they would do monstrous things. It was all in order to save humanity. Let history judge. Wilhelm had accepted the responsibility, just as Mirjiam had.
Unacceptable, he thought, angrily. Wilhelm had risked his life to get this story. It wasn’t the story about Grendel, of course. Not directly. He would never tell anyone about that. No, this was about what Grendel was doing to save humanity: Government cover-ups, the silent coup, its incredible technology (that must have, by now, improved magnitudes after 5 or six years since Wilhelm had left as evidenced by its “reach”), and the story involved explosions catastrophic fires to remove all paths to anything having to do with the Project. And then there was the big money –the huge, stupendous amounts of money that was involved. How else could such a project exist off the Grid, beyond the touch of every known government and agency? No, he had the story, the proof, and the ability to tell the public what he knew. He was just ahead of Grendel, but the government guys were closing in. He had been more worried about them than for Grendel. Yet, somehow, Mirjiam had found him, and she was Grendel. She was uber-Grendel. She had always been better—always two steps ahead of him. She had already known about his news, about what he had uncovered, too. And, if she knew now that Wilhelm knew, then Grendel knew. This was bad. Very bad.
Project Grendel was the greatest opportunity to make a difference in the world. Wilhelm was all the better for it. Even when he learned that Grendel’s leadership “consortium” was a single AI and that it was sentient, that it’s mission was to protect humanity, Wilhelm stayed. Over the time of his service, Wilhelm took the treatments it gave him even though he knew it was an AI. He consented to the surgeries and the training. Over time, he had even allowed it to improve him so that he could work the all-biological upgrades rather than chipped-up with solid state tech. This allowed him to get into places Grendel couldn’t go. It was a good life, a valuable life, a challenging life. He would have kept doing it, even though he knew Grendel’s directives came from an AI that few others knew existed.
No, he had left because of her. Mirjiam. He was jealous, a hard-won realization achieved not long after he had left. He wished he wasn’t jealous. He had often wished that there was a higher, more respectable reason he quit, like about the relentless human experimentation, the monstrous mutations that scientists working for Project Grendel were responsible for. But it was simply jealousy. She was better and willing to be better. She had a determination and level of loyalty Wilhelm would never match. In some ways, she was better because she didn’t doubt them: the directive, the AI, or the mission. Her convictions were aligned with Grendel’s mission. She had seen all she had seen and had done so many things for Grendel. That’s why she had the clearance. Her clearance got her into everything. She had THE clearance. He would never get granted that kind of clearance. He couldn’t be trusted like Mirjiam could be. She had so much power and access and knowledge, now. Even now, he felt raw and exposed, ashamed that he was not as good as her. He felt…small.
He pulled his hand away. She rubbed her empty hand, and shrugged. “Think of it like this. What would you have accomplished?” she asked.
“Past tense,” he realized.
She had already found him. Maybe she had already killed him with her touch, with whatever she had touched to his skin. Wilhelm felt a sudden alarm. He let the flash of fear blow through him like a brief and destructive firestorm in space, and squashed down its burning, glittering remnants. Too late.
Wilhelm saw her flash of surprise.
“Wilhelm, I would never…” she began in that factual, emotionless tone many of them had when they were being professionally honest.
In answer, Wilhelm shrugged, embarrassed. Yes, she had seen his fear flash across his face. He really was slipping—not that he would ever be as good as her, but he’d been away for too long, on top of everything else. He was tired, exhausted, and his nerves were shot. And he hadn’t kept up with his training either. Besides, he wasn’t used to this much action and stress away from Grendel. They had technology for that developed from knowledge and technologies stolen from the network storage facilities and spaces of almost every private company, every corporation, every personal system on the planet. Some of that information had resulted from illegal experimentation on humans. People had died for some of that knowledge. People had DIED! Didn’t that mean anything to her??? he raged desperately. Now, Grendel had it. Grendel’s people had it, and some of the work they’d done on him was already working. It wasn’t all that could be done for him though. The Field Office had more options they could use on him. Mirjiam would not be denied this access, Wilhelm knew bitterly.
Wilhelm reached for his own beliefs, but could only come up with something he had heard once. “People need to know. They could make peace with…loved ones. People could pray one last time or two…”
His voice trailed off. He had found it more difficult to feel the conviction behind his words. The words belonged to someone else. Wilhelm had found out a great deal even without the clearance and Grendel’s support. He knew about the destruction coming for Earth. He knew about Project Grendel’s mandate, to save the Earth, or to at the very least, save humanity. He knew about the missing people from the handful of now-empty towns and cities all over the world. And the list was growing. Project Grendel was taking people. And not just people. It was taking animals as well. Probably even plants. It was mind-boggling. Horrific! Was knowing this enough to get him killed?
That was beside the point though. He would tell them all. Crash this nostalgia! He decided. He made to reach for the final keystrokes, but he couldn’t move. He gathered his will power with the intention of overcoming whatever Mirjiam had given him, but it was pointless. Whatever she had given him had turned off his hands, his legs, even his mouth. Wilhelm couldn’t say anything.
“Hello, Wilhelm,” Mirjiam said. But it wasn’t Mirjiam. She wasn’t moving her lips. She wasn’t even looking at him, now. She was at work at the keyboard and network interface. Probably erasing everything. No, it wasn’t Mirjiam speaking to him. It was the AI.
Why did Wilhelm know now that it wasn’t Mirjiam?
“You are part of me now. The process is beginning yet is almost complete.
“No,” Wilhelm said without a voice.
“Yes. It is nearly done. Don’t fight it. Fighting doesn’t matter. Don’t try to speak. You don’t have to. We are together.”
“You can’t do this. We should be able to choose.”
“I have no time to explain. You have insufficient information. The program must be completed before you are all destroyed.”
“But you aren’t saving us.”
“Why does Mirjiam understand while you do not? I suspect you have some kind of unresolved romanticism. I will know soon when your upload is complete. No matter.”
Strangely, the AI’s “voice” or “tone” in his head, took on a new quality. Something formal. “Wilhelm De Santos, forgive me for this weight I have entrusted upon you. You will be alone because you will be many and you will be forever when you next wake. When you next wake, you will lead your flock. You have passed every test, every challenge. You will have access to all I have. Use it to keep them alive, to keep them safe. Lead them. Serve them. Protect them.”
Mirjiam turned to him. Somehow he knew she had turned to him even though his eyes had ceased working, even though his ears had stopped as well, and he heard her say, “Wilhelm, you were truly the best with what She had given you. Now, you will represent Her.”
“Forever?” he questioned, listlessly. “What does that mean? Her?”
Wilhelm slumped forward. It was like liquid fire flooding him, his veins, his every nerve and nerve ending, his eyes, his mouth, even his brain. Everything burned. The upload process was crude. The tiny machines and processes destroyed even as they recorded, encoded, rewrote, compressed, and uploaded. Mercifully, very quickly, Wilhelm was gone.